What Happens When You Hold onto the Past

Last week I talked about various signs that you are stuck in the past. This week I’m sharing what happens when you hold onto the past and how holding onto the past affects your physical and energetic bodies. 

Since the first step to letting go of the past is acceptance it can also be helpful to know how being stuck in the past affects you. After all, there would be no reason to let go of the past if it wasn’t causing you pain or suffering. Knowing where we’re holding onto the past in our bodies can also bring more awareness to what needs to shift so that your energy can operate optimally.

When your energy is operating optimally you feel more energized, your immune system improves, and you experience positive emotions like joy and peace. When your energy is depleted or there are blockages in your energy it can manifest as all kinds of physical issues and emotional suffering.

When I work with my client in Intuitive Healing sessions, I am able to read their energy and see how it is moving throughout their physical and energetic systems to know where these blockages and depletions are.

Knowing where you’re holding onto the past in your body and energy is helpful for understanding how to release it. Letting go of something contained in the heart is much different than letting go of something held in the gut.

Holding onto the past can show up almost anywhere in the body. The most common areas are the joints, the digestive system, and the shoulders.

Almost all chronic diseases and conditions are related to holding onto the past. For example, Arthritis is often related to holding onto resentment. Resentment is an emotion that is generated from storing up anger and hurt from your past, it is stored in the sacral chakra. 

For a reference on health issues and their probable causes check out Louise Hay’s book Heal Your Body.

Let’s talk about the most common areas of the body where we hold onto the past. For each area, I’ll share the most common symptoms we experience, how that’s reflected in our energy systems, and a simple practice you can use to release the things you’re holding onto.

The joints are the parts of the body that allow movement. The joints are extremely intricate and comprised of muscles, tendons, and ligaments that attach to the bones that keep the joints together and the body mobile. The most common joint problems are arthritis, tendinitis, pain, swelling, and limited range of motion. When these symptoms show up on an energetic level the energy is getting clogged up in the joints and is not able to flow properly through the meridians of the body. (The meridians are energy channels that run throughout the entire body.)

Since the joints represent movement and flow when issues show up in the joints we can ask the question, “What is blocking movement and flow in my life?” It is here that we find the answers related to being stuck in the past. 

Often, the answer is related to being stuck or holding onto the past in some way. When the lower body is affected this can signal resistance to physically moving forward in life and taking action. When you’re not moving forward, you can never be in the present moment, so you’re stuck to something in the past that is holding back your momentum. When the arms and hands are affected this signifies gripping onto something too tightly, usually a past hurt.

To move energy in the joints it is important to physically move your body in whatever way feels good. If things have been stuck in the joints for too long, the joints can freeze up and become immobile. Think about it like ice that’s built up in the body, the easiest way to remove the obstacle is to gently thaw the ice and allow things to flow smoothly. Opening things up too quickly can be like releasing a damn which floods and causes other problems.

If you’re storing up and holding onto the past in your joints, imagine the blockage in your joints. Then imagine thawing out that blockage so that the energy can flow freely through your body and out your hands and feet.

The digestive system is the center of our emotional guidance system. It is comprised of your liver, stomach, and intestines. Physically these organs control our digestion and our ability to process life. It is affected both by what we take in and what we eliminate, this information comes not just from food but also from our environment and our experiences. Common digestive issues include acid reflux, IBS, constipation, diarrhea, bloating, nausea, cramping, and eating disorders. Energetically, the digestive system is related to the root, sacral, spleen, and solar plexus chakras.

Processing things like fixations on food or material things, fear, anxiety, guilt, shame, anger, and frustration are all signs that you might be holding onto your past. If you are fixated on something, it is most likely because you were lacking it or withheld from it in the past and now you are trying to make up for that lack. Fear and anxiety exist because view the world from the lens of the past, things that once made us feel unsafe we now look out for around every corner. 

Guilt and shame are emotions that we hold onto for things that we or someone else did wrong in the past. Yes, you can hold onto guilt and shame for others and this is never your responsibility. Anger and frustration arise from being unable to control something, something that happened to us in our past.

Energetically these things muck up our energetic systems. Within your chakras, there could be not enough energy or too much energy. You might not be taking in the energy that you need or releasing energy that needs to be released.

To move the energy in your lower chakra and your digestive system work to digest and assimilate all new experiences peacefully and joyously. Practice taking new things in, letting them process through your system, and then let them go! The whole process is needed for your energy to work smoothly, if anything gets clogged up in that process or a step is skipped over it can throw off your entire system.

The shoulders represent how we carry out life. Do we live life joyously and lovingly or does heaviness weigh on us so greatly that it is impossible to experience joy and love? The shoulders are technically another joint in the body but I wanted to address them separately because what we carry in the shoulders is very specific. 

Shoulder and upper back pain are endemic. Part of this is due to technology but a great part of this is due to how burdened we are as a society. By the way, working long hours on a computer or phone is a burden that many of us are forced to face. So it makes sense that this is such a prevalent issue that people face.

Energetically, the shoulders are directly related to the heart chakra and can also be affected by the throat. Feeling burdened and grief is like putting a backpack on and filling up with bricks from the past. It’s okay to feel this way sometimes but at some point, the backpack gets so heavy that we have to let some of the bricks go.

Ideally, instead of filling our backpacks up with bricks, we wouldn’t even carry the things that burden us and the things we grieve everywhere we go. Perhaps, in the present moment, we may need to shoulder a burden but once it has passed we have to choose to let it go and allow ourselves to experience joy once again. Similarly, when we grieve, we have to allow ourselves to experience the loss and make room in our hearts so that love can continue to grow.

As deeply as you are burdened and as deeply as you grieve, you have the same capacity to feel love and joy. Breathing is one of the best ways to allow this process of experiencing and releasing. As we breathe deeply we make space in our hearts for energy and love to flow in. If you are struggling to let go of burdens or grief, take up a breathing practice, sit with deep breaths for 5 minutes at a time, and allow whatever arises to be released through the breath. Then imagine breathing in new energy and allowing it to fill your heart space.

If you need assistance in opening up these blocks and getting your energy flowing you’re welcome to book an Intuitive Healing session in person or via zoom!

Signs You’re Stuck in the Past

According to Lao Tzu, “If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present.” On Sunday, we had a Full Moon Eclipse in Scorpio. This full moon is all about purging, cleansing, and releasing. This week on my Instagram, I’ll be sharing 6 Steps to Let Go of the Past. If you’ve been struggling to let go of the past, make sure you head over there to check out the step-by-step process. Today, I want to share how to recognize if you are stuck in the past.

If you’re not sure if you are hanging onto the past, there are a number of ways to recognize being stuck in the past. The first step of letting go of the past is acceptance, so before you can move on, you first have to recognize and accept where you’re at. With the energy of this full moon, I encourage you to read through these signs and start plucking out the overgrown weeds that are stealing your energy.

You keep talking about the past or a person in your past over and over again. When you’re doing this the people around you might become uncomfortable and shy away from the conversation. You might notice yourself losing relationships, this could be by your own choice or theirs. Relationships are always a reflection of ourselves, so if you find yourself wanting to move away from a relationship because the person is shutting you down, not listening, or shutting down in the conversation, it may be time to reflect on if you are the one playing the victim. I also want to acknowledge that just because someone is shutting down on you, doesn’t mean you are playing the victim. This is about honest self-reflection.

You keep trying to figure out why. Why something happened to you in the past. Why someone treated you the way they did or always treats you the way they do. Why the same thing keeps happening to you over and over again. Or why you keep getting stuck doing the same behavior over and over again. A certain amount of reflection is good, but at a certain point, we just have to choose to live our lives differently. Constantly asking why and trying desperately to figure it out are signs that you are stuck in victim mode and are therefore stuck in the past.

You’re seeking closure. Finding closure so we can move on is an internal process. If we seek closure externally then we are stuck in the past. This could mean holding on to receiving an apology from someone, trying to reconcile a relationship, trying to get someone back, and more.

You take things personally. When you take things personally, everything everyone does is a personal affront to you. When we’re stuck in the past, we make assumptions about other people’s behavior based on past experiences that we’ve been through. For me, this is super clear to me that I’m stuck in this when I know that the person I’m interacting with has good intentions, but I’m constantly triggered by something they do or say. People who care about you will work with you to overcome these triggers. It’s here that we need to take responsibility for how the past affects our own behavior in our interactions.

You’re consumed with negative self-talk. Speaking badly of yourself is a clear sign that you’re stuck in the past. Almost always negative self-talk is the voice of someone or something in our past that told us that there is something wrong with who we are. To overcome negative self-talk we have to acknowledge the things from the past that our repeating thoughts point us to.

You hold onto emotions like guilt, shame, bitterness, anger, or resentment. All of these emotions are related to the past. It’s impossible for these emotions to be related to the present because the moments that just happened are already in the past. In order to heal from the past, we have to heal the emotions that bind us.

You keep performing the same behaviors over and over again. Doing the same thing over and over and holding onto old patterns is a way of being stuck in the past. If you’ve been trying to change a behavior, but keep circling back to it, it’s time to examine what you’re still holding onto from your past. Letting go of the past is key to changing our behavior and being who we want to be in the present moment.

There are so many things and nuances that are key indicators of living in the past. If any of these resonated with you, or you know you are stuck in the past but aren’t sure how to move past it. You’re invited to book a Complimentary Clarity Call or Intuitive Healing Session with me. In our Intuitive Healing Sessions, I read your energy to share with you where your blockages are and guide you to release trapped energy so that you can move forward.

With love and light,
Natasha

I’m Back!

I’m back from my hiatus! Our wedding was wonderful, everything was exactly how I pictured it. It went even better than I imagined. One of the things I loved most was how we were able to integrate who we are, our values, nature, and what we want to consciously create together. Leading up to getting married was one of the biggest soul searching and healing times in my life, one I’m sure I’ll be sharing more in the future.

We had a fantastic honeymoon in Italy as well, seeing much of northern Italy. It was so nice to finally get to travel out of the country after the past few years. There were so many wonderful experiences and things to see. I’m so filled with gratitude that my business has reached the point where I was able to take the time off and truly enjoy myself.

I’m still in the process of getting back to some normalcy in my life, which means catching up on so many things that got put off leading up to the wedding and getting back into my regular schedule. This is the first time I’ve had time to sit down and write since getting back almost 3 weeks ago!

I’ll be getting back to my regular emails next week and covering all things energy, Reiki, and intuition for life and business!

If you’re ready to book a session, you can check my availability below or book a Complimentary Clarity Call.

I hope you are doing well and getting ready to enjoy your summer!

With love and light,
Natasha

Going on a Short Hiatus

If you’ve been around me for a while, you know that I am pretty much an open book. I like to share about my personal journey in Reiki, in business, and sometimes I also share about my personal life when I feel like it might help someone who can relate. Today I’m sharing something a little bit different, but it’s just because my excitement is overflowing and so is the love in my heart.

In 3 days, I will be marrying my soul partner, a man who values the same things I do and has the same hopes and dreams for the future. After more than 3 years together, and a year and a half of planning, we will finally be saying “we do.” I won’t say that we’ve had a perfect love story – who could when cramped together in a matchbox apartment during a pandemic? But we have survived a lot as a couple and know that our future lives together will be filled with the normal ups and downs of life (hopefully more ups than downs!).

This is why I’ve been missing in action from your email inbox for a few weeks. Organizing a wedding or any large event comes with a lot of small details that all come down to the last minute and make it harder to focus on your regularly scheduled life. Although I’m planning to continue to share a bit on social media, I’ll be taking a short hiatus from most other aspects of my business for several weeks in April as we travel on our honeymoon. If you want to schedule Reiki or a Clarity Call before or after our honeymoon, my calendar will be updated to reflect my adjusted availability.

Thank you for sharing my journey and I’m looking forward to continuing to share with you in the future.

Love and Light,
Natasha Nirvana

Are You Truly Listening to Your Inner Voice?

I talk a lot about intuition and it can be so difficult to discern our own voice from others and truly listen to our inner voice. So many of our insecurities, doubts, and blocks stem from not truly listening to our intuition. If you’re in the process of creating this can show up as…

  • Struggling with a lack of clarity around your service offerings, packages, and programs.
  • Constantly comparing your offers to others in the market and feeling like you or your offer aren’t enough.
  • Being unsure of where to focus because you want to do all the things, you know that somehow they all intersect but can’t find that point.
  • Trying every strategy out there over and over again, even though they make you feel shitty and never work.


I totally get it, I’ve dealt with all of these things in my business myself. 

(A little secret, I’m dealing with them right now with this program. Even though I know deep down Intuitive Offer Creation is amazing and my soul is calling me to share this message.)

That’s why I created Intuitive Offer Creation – because I’m sick of solutions that lead us away from listening to our inner voice. 

I know there’s a way to do it differently because every time I find my voice, I release resistance a little more!

Intuitive Offer Creation is going to help you to…

  • Access your Unique Intuitive Blueprint, to remember that you do have an intuition and your heart and body already know.
  • Stop comparing your intuition and the way you run your business to other people.
  • Create at least one profitable program that you can launch over and over again.


This program is so high-touch, I’ll be there along the way holding your hand. I’ll be there to validate your intuition and downloads when doubt arises.

This 4-week group mentorship program starts March 9th.

Week 1: You’ll discover your Unique Intuitive Blueprint
Week 2: You’ll discover your blocks to accessing your Unique Intuitive Blueprint and using it in business.
Week 3: You’ll use your Unique Intuitive Blueprint to channel the most profitable offer that you have within you right now.
Week 4: You’ll refine your offer so that you feel fully confident in your offer and its pricing.

You’ll leave the mentorship in alignment with your offer and ready to sell!

Ready to join? Sign up here or book a clarity call. There’s no pressure to join, I’m available to answer all your questions and help you figure out if this is the right fit.